Jacob to Israel

For those familiar with the Old Testament story of Jacob's wrestling with the angel (messenger) bringing about the change in his name from Jacob to Israel:

Some thoughts and questions for you this morning…

If Jacob (which means supplanter; one who seizes the place of another metaphorically Jacob is our own ego that has seized the throne of I AM temporarily) wrestles with the Divine messenger and Jacob’s name is changed to Israel – what does that mean?


Is (Isis, Isus, Jesus) – Means “came from the creation of the universe”
Ra – The sun god, “The one who was there at the beginning”
El – God

So, Jacob being representative of all egocentric mankind (ego driven life) has his name changed through the struggle with the messenger to IS RA EL.

(It should be noted that this struggle is INTERNAL).

We are created egocentric beings that through struggle we awaken to our true identity.

At the creation of the material Universe – we are
We were there at the beginning
We are God expressed in physical form.

Come up and out of the waters ye God-men!

Your baptism into humanity is finished.

Your labor is over.

You are the womb-man that births the Christ.


On leaving Christianity...

On leaving Christianity... To my detractors:

I too was dogmatic, unmoving, rigid, motivated by fear, brainwashed and conditioned to believe someone else's idea of God. Then something wonderful happened: I let it all go.

I let Jesus go; my idea of him and all of the doctrines I had wrapped myself in forsaking it all to know the truth. I repented. I changed the way that I think.

I began to search for love, non judgement, tolerance and acceptance, the very attributes of Christ.

I cannot go back to the idea of a punishing God; one that tells us to love and to forgive our enemies while he tortures his in everlasting torment. No, my religion no longer made sense. I have found Christ - he is formed within the womb of man wrapped in the swaddling of our very own flesh and blood.

Yes, I found him always in my heart not trying to get in, but trying to get out to express through me....him.


I was asked why I take scriptures metaphorically...

"The scripture compares itself to "allegory" at least five times. (Ezekiel 17:2, Galatians 4:24, Proverbs 1:6, John 10:6 and John 16:29). So we must view some, if not all of scripture as having metaphorical or allegorical value."

I decided back in 2005 to let everything that I thought I knew about Christianity/God/Jesus go. It was a time of personal transition and crisis and I knew that I was breaking down - spiritually speaking. I looked into the word “repent” and saw that it meant “to turn around and to change the way that you think.” And I did.

There is a scripture where Jesus said, "It is better for you if I go away…I will send the comforter to you.” I made the decision to let him, Jesus and everything I was taught about him, go. I was so totally confused by what I had been taught about God - this tyrant that loved and hated, was jealous, incited rape and murder, dismemberment and genocide. Really? Nope. I couldn’t do it anymore. It just didn’t make sense. This seems is a prerequisite for repentance - "to change the way you think." Everyone will begin to question the tenets of their faith at sometime. We cannot help but outgrow that clothing from our childhood.

Then I began to look at scripture more figuratively, especially the mysterious parables that Jesus taught - they were all figurative. He encouraged us to “lift our eyes.” What did that mean? Were we to look skyward all the time lol or did it mean to access a different space in our conscious awareness. I asked for help in interpreting the scriptures - not according to any Bible commentary, but what was the Spirit speaking directly to me?

Peace began to wash over me as I sojourned out from fear and into love and acceptance.

The mysteries come from meeting Christ in the "upper room” - that is, in your own higher thinking. This is where the “unveiling” takes place. There is a veil between the two hemispheres of the brain called the corpus collosum. It is referred to in the medical community as the “veil.” It acts as a mediator between the left and right hemispheres of the brain, the bride and the groom. Once the veil is “rent” we can have access to both sides of the brain and our intuitive function really kicks in. This is where we meet with “Christ” as Christ is the amalgamation - the byproduct of union.

As far as the absolutes of Christianity…

Jesus was not a Christian or even a good Jew for that matter. He said, “Before Abraham was, I AM.” Abraham was the founder of Judaism so Jesus was stating his existence even before the founding of Judaism. He was neither Christian or Jew.

In my searching I discovered much of Christianity that was simply not true but had been inherited from Constantine and the council at Nicea. I had to learn for myself like the forming of the butterfly from the liquid carcass - the breakdown of the caterpillar. No one could do this for me, and no one could help me free myself from he cocoon, lest I miss the struggle that forced the life’s blood into my metaphorical wings.

The term Christian was around long before Jesus and simply eludes to an enlightened being. Our enlightenment was nullified when we began to embrace the traditions of men and the doctrines of "men and demons.”



It is not about sex...

It's not about sex…
The Christian right cites Romans Chapter One as the ultimate indictment against homosexuality. Let's take a closer look.

For those that dare lol. It is long but oh so worth it! Please set aside 20 minutes and read it slowly. I wrote it and I still need to read it slowly:)

It is imperative that Romans Chapter One is taken metaphorically, metaphysically, symbolically or figuratively to see the mystery of creation contained within the text. If we take it literally we are sentenced to see only with our five senses and what they observe in the natural. Romans Chapter One is not about human sex. Rather it is about the masculine and feminine energies resident within the human being and the ramifications of dysfunctional “relations” within the body.

You will see that these dysfunctional relations produce death and indeed, the human race is mortal and does indeed… die. Our salvation is not relegated to the time appointed by some religions occurring only after death with entrance to some heaven. No, I say it is apprehended TODAY.

Paul alluded to this mystery when he said, “Wives submit to your husbands and husbands love your wives.” He even went further and said, “I speak a mystery [not about husbands and wives] but of Christ and his church.” Paul was referring to the mystery of the ages by stating that the teachings about men and women in their respective roles were to be taken figuratively. It should be noted here also that the “church” is not what we think it is. The “church” is the dwelling place of the Divine within the human as well as a dwelling place that is immaterial – in the next dimension so to speak. It is you divinely indwelled – and it is the part of you that transcends the material worlds. That is the “church.”

We must “lift our eyes” to see these coded mysteries and if we do, we will see the mechanics of manifesting immortality itself and a world that does not decay. Presently we have a time limit on our creative outputs. We are sentenced to mortality – a life that spans no more than 120 years (Genesis 6). And our world reflects this time limit through aging, disease, rust, mold, mildew and ultimately dis-in-teg-ra-tion.

For those fixed on schism and finger pointing, well, they will have a hard time seeing this chapter figuratively. A transition must be made within the mind itself, a shifting of focus much like an eye adjusts to see something near or far. If we are to apprehend the mysteries contained within the scriptural text then literalism must be surrendered. Please don’t misunderstand, the literal translation has a place in time but keep in mind, the letter kills, but the spiritual (mystical) brings life.

There are many admonitions in the New Testament to “lift our eyes and see” and “let him who has ears to hear, hear.” This is absolute instruction to the human being to shift focus, to repent (to see things differently) and to tap into the mechanism (your intuition that connects you with the part of you that does not dwell in the material world) of the body that allows to shift from left brain intellect to right brain intuitive. It requires the ability to see from above the linear and historical accounts presented in the text.

If we perceive Romans Chapter One speaking of human sexuality we are viewing with a lens that gives a very granular and literal understanding. But if we shift to see that it just may be pointing to something much more mysterious that allows for perception beyond the natural, you will see an overview from above - with an eagle’s eye view. If you are able, this is indeed, “where the eagles gather.”

We are all male and female, masculine and feminine in one body. This is our state of being as described in Genesis One, before our devolution into duality where we manifest as separate: male and female in respective bodies. It is through this dalliance into duality that the human race beautifully expresses the unseen dynamics and MYSTERIES of creation by literally bringing forth life after its kind.
Literally we see that the woman is the receptacle (the womb-man). Within the female is the ability to bring forth life. The male deposits seed (through the intimate passage) the child forms and birth through the narrow way occurs.

Figuratively, the feminine aspect of the human, the womb or the receptacle, is joined with the human will, ego, mind. Ultimately this dalliance must come to an end. We must willingly submit to the Divine masculine. This occurs when, like the pattern of Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane, willingly faces the cross experience and declares, “Nevertheless not my will, but thy will be done.” The pattern of Jesus shows that the human egocentric will must give way or yield to that counterpart within and dwelling in “heaven” that is Divine – the “CHURCH.” This is the feminine submitting to the masculine. It is the human will yielding to the unlimited and immaterial spirit that does not have boundaries and is not stuck within time and the material worlds. Once this “wedding” takes place, the feminine has access to infinity.

Let’s take a brief look at this pattern within the story of Esther as she marries the King. Here is an excerpt from Escaping Christianity ~ Finding Christ:

“Esther was being prepared to meet the King to become his Queen and as such she was having her skin anointed with perfumed oil. Oil is a perfect metaphor for Spirit or Divinity. Once oil is rubbed into the skin, the oil is irretrievable as the skin and the oil have become one. The oil is now animated as it mingles with flesh and the flesh becomes supple and beautiful. It is a mutually beneficial relationship. Metaphorically we can see that the oil or Divinity (Spirit) and the flesh (metaphor for baseness) become ONE—like a marriage.

The story of Esther is metaphoric for our own process of anointing as we are prepared to meet the King. The basis for the word Christ then, is when Divinity and flesh meet in conscious awareness. Flesh is anointed as we awaken to the reality that Divinity indwells us. Divinity is "pressed into" the mortal framework and there are now two conscious elements dwelling in one body—and the two become ONE. Jesus was called "Emanuel" or God with man. This meeting is a culmination of a courtship between Divinity and human consciousness that has lasted millennia.

As the story continues, Esther presents herself before the King and plans to ask for the salvation of her people who were under threat of imminent death at the hangman’s gallows. We must ask ourselves, are we mortal and subject to imminent death? Are we petitioning for salvation? The King welcomes her into his presence and tells her to ask for anything, anything up to half of his kingdom. Wow—now that is a partnership. Her people were ultimately spared. And that is what comes with the anointing and is what happens to us as this Spark of Divinity expands or grows and becomes one with us. It is like the parable of the mustard seed planted in the Garden. It begins as the smallest of seeds but soon overtakes the "garden." It is perfection blossoming in and through us.

This account of Esther and the King is a beautiful metaphor—the Queen (the womb of the egocentric human) once consummation/union takes place comes boldly to her counterpart, the King (life giving seed giver, Spirit/Divinity) and is petitioning for the salvation of her people (the human race). The scriptures are indeed a roadmap for us, which if viewed metaphorically, reveal humanity’s path through consciousness. And what a journey it is.” End Quote

This union between the metaphorical King and Queen is when we the Queen, submits to the King. Once this partnership is consummated, we have access to the riches of the kingdom.

From this elevated view, we understand the necessity to bring our former “single” self, our human mode of egocentric operation that is, judging between good and evil, into submission. Our pattern son told us, “Do not judge, lest you be judged with the same judgment that you judge another.” This is a prerequisite to transition the age.

This admonition is the key to creating, maintaining and sustaining this mortal and limited realm of death that we live in while we “eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.” For when we judge between good and evil, we are creating the cycle of death because when Divinity (that is a spark dwelling within the human) decrees a thing, it is so. And so, we create continually, this limited and mortal environment, because we continually judge. And when we judge by saying, “that is evil!”… IT IS. We are told if we eat from this tree that we will “surely die” and die we do!

We are called to surrender this act of judging between right and wrong, good and evil. But how can we do this? It is the task of this forerunning brigade to blaze the trail of non-judgment, tolerance, acceptance and LOVE. The world will follow suit when it has had its fill of the hog slop it has been eating, just as the prodigal returned to his fathers house, wrapped in blessing, so will all. In short, human judgment is highly creative. The mortal world is maintained and sustained through human judgment.

What does this have to do with Romans Chapter One? And what of sex?
Please allow me to generalize:

The act of human sex and interplay is a mirror to what occurs in the unseen world of figurative intercourse. In the natural, human sex when executed in a “righteous” manner produces life within the womb (by righteous I mean anatomically correct processes for human conception).

When intercourse is executed figuratively (not necessarily righteously), the spiritual womb becomes a production line and will produce after its own kind. And so we have the realm of death and decay (hell – where we presently abide) and will continue to do so when the egocentric seed is deposited in the figurative womb. This means that whatever the mind of the human incubates it will create. This is why we are encouraged to take our thoughts captive and to think on things that are pure and lovely. Our thoughts when mingled with our emotions are absolutely creative. Human judgment seeds this womb perpetually.

Within all of humanity this highly creative attribute (figurative intercourse) has the ability to bring forth reality – yes – reality and everything within this dimension of habitation. So when the egocentric human copulates within by seeding the womb with negative and judgmental thoughts and watering these seeds with the corresponding emotional values, it creates. And this creation is mortal and limited.

CONVERSELY – When the egocentric human surrenders its will to that of the Divine (seed giver-progenitor) something wondrous happens. The awakened human sees that it has been creating a world of limitation, death and decay and SHIFTS out from judgment and into LOVE. When these attributes (masculine/spirit and feminine/human) unite now with the driving force of LOVE rather than fear (which is what all human creation is centered upon) then Christ is conceived and ultimately birthed. Christ is the God-man, both God and man within the framework of the human being. An immortal being is created by the synergistic and cooperative effort of the human and the Divine. It is called EMANUEL.

Let’s look again:

The Divine (Spirit) is masculine and is the eternal seed bearer.

The Ego is masculine and is the mortal seed bearer.

Presently we are like the pattern of Gomer (Hosea 1), a whore (symbolically copulating with the ego, the snake in the garden within). But the Spirit is consumed with LOVE for this beloved and marries her, redeeming her.

The feminine is the receptacle. It is the human being.

Masculine and feminine energies are the mechanism for creating all that is.

Romans Chapter One (summarized)

Vs. 19-20 For what may be known of God is manifest in them; His invisible attributes are clearly seen being understood by the things that are made.
Here we see that we manifest the attributes of God and can plainly see them by the things that are MADE/created. WE CREATE because we have these attributes in US.

Vs. 20-23 His eternal power is seen in us but we didn’t see that we were creating with Divinities attributes in us! We glorified our own egocentric self and became mortal and limited while retaining the ability to create all that is. We became egocentric beings, fools.

Vs. 24-28 We dishonored these marvelous mechanisms of creation (our bodies) by exchanging the natural use of the feminine (the womb) for that which is unnatural. We began to copulate with the ego and began our devolution into hell, that is, mortality. Divine seed was no longer placed in the womb as feminine and Divine masculine did not unite. Womb-man did not have a Divine masculine counterpart. In the same way, masculine ego romped with ego - shameful activities leading to death (mortality).

This is the height of “figurative” sexual immorality. Joining ourselves with ego – the ultimate and despicable fornication.

When the feminine copulates without the Divine masculine, there is no seed to bring forth life.

When the egocentric masculine spills seed outside of the receptacle, there is death to the seed. The mouth/throat is called the grave or sepulcher. The bowels represent hell. Both allude to death.

When the egocentric masculine and feminine copulate (unrighteous) the resulting creation is corrupted and we are mortal. Everything dies.

When the feminine “receives” the Divine masculine seed (this is the feminine submitting to the will of the Divine) eternal and immortal life is manifest. This conception is the beginning of birthing the Christ. The Christ is an immortal being endowed with the power to create and maintain immortality.

Now to those who judge those who commit such things as mentioned in Romans 
Chapter One:

Romans Chapter Two:

Vs. 1 Therefore you are inexcusable, O man, whoever you are who JUDGE, for in whatever you judge another, you CONDEMN yourself; for you who judge PRACTICE THE SAME THINGS.

This indictment clearly reveals that the sexual immorality referenced in Chapter One is HUMAN JUDGMENT. Sexual immorality is a METAPHOR for the practice of egocentric human JUDGMENT because judgment reaps mortality and propagates this mortal and limited environment by populating the WOMB with DEATH.
This is why it is said that by partaking of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil we will surely DIE.




Baptism - It's not what you think it is...

Baptism: It’s not what you think it is…


I deeply appreciate the ritual and more importantly the symbolism of baptism, but back in my days as a fundamentalist Christian it was the fear of hell that kept me going back for more. I was baptized many times! Deep down inside, I, like most fundamentalists, had a fear-based belief in the ritual and a very limited and literal understanding of what it means to be baptized.


But once I started to see this and other rituals as metaphors my whole viewpoint changed. John the Baptist introduced water baptism giving to us a tactile act that symbolizes Divinity’s immersion or descent into the material world, that is, into human consciousness.




Baptism is not about getting wet, whether it be by sprinkling or dunking, but the ritual does offer a template that shows us Divinity’s journey into human consciousness. If we can disengage from the literal act of baptism and the attached dogma, we may see something far more mysterious than perfunctory.


We discover that this ritual, when understood metaphorically, is at the heart of our authentic identity as Divinity lowered and immersed into human-hood, then resurrecting from that mortal state, and ascending into immortality. It is cited in scripture that we must be baptized in order to be saved.


Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. (Mark 16:16)


We see there is an edict to be baptized and also to believe. Believe in what? Should we believe in someone else’s idea of God killing his Son so that his wrath might be avenged? Should we believe that we have to get sprinkled or dunked to get into heaven? Must we recite a prayer acknowledging that we are sinners?


"Will be condemned" are strong words from which to build a very threatening doctrine. Who wants to be condemned (to hell) and suffer everlasting torment in flames? Can the simple act of being immersed in water really save us?


The act and ritual of baptism is not so much for egocentric man but rather it is for the Divine nature within man to awaken and to become consciously aware of its own journey.


After all it has been immersed into human form, beneath the waters of human consciousness. Likewise, its human partner, the mind, must come to terms with its immortal reality and BELIEVE who and what it is. Otherwise, we have to go around the karmic mountain again sentenced to mortality (the realm of death and decay) until the time of awakening where we finally believe in whom and what we are. Baptism is a profound template found in scripture.

Coming up and out of the waters of limited, mortal and human consciousness is what “saves” the body. This mystery is not about getting wet be it sprinkling or dunking. It’s about recognizing that you as Divinity, took a fantastic journey - a long slumber into mortality as a human being. Now it is time to wake-up.


Believe – be immersed into human consciousness – forget your Divinity – then when you have experienced all there is to experience, when the suffering of the Christ has been “filled” up in your body, it will be time to awaken.


From Escaping Christianity ~ Finding Christ

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