June 28, 2012 Letting Jesus Go

Letting Jesus Go

As we transition through various levels of understanding and relationship with "All that is" (God is a German word for good and even scripture says that this creator is unnameable! But I still call him God when trying to relate to others:) I have found that it is important that I not to see someone as right or wrong in their beliefs, because I think that we are all wonderfully accepted and seeing accurately depending on our individual perspective and vantage point. 

That was a hard lesson for me to learn as passionate and zealous as I was and am! If someone is a seed, and Jesus compared us to this analogy, then their outward perspective is one of dormancy and even death until they are planted, then it is darkness. Suddenly they descend deeper into that darkness and reap the treasures that are found there - the minerals and moisture from the soil or our earthly carnal experiences. A strong root system is built and again a shift occurs and their direction is turned upward where this sapling breaks the plane of the earth. A neighboring mighty oak cannot pull the sapling upward for it would mean its destruction, the sapling through time, water and weathering will grow to be what is encoded in its DNA.

It is important to remember the origin of the seed as well, for it fell from the mature mighty oak...

We cannot help but become who and what we are. We grow and unfold and no one knows how.

As for those believing that Jesus never existed matters not to me. I experienced a great shift when this voice came to me and said, "Let me go."

John 16:7 Nevertheless I tell you the truth. It is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you. 8 And when He has come, He will convict the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment: 9 of sin, because they do not believe in Me; 10 of righteousness, because I go to My Father and you see Me no more; 11 of judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged. 12 I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. 13 However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come. 14 He will glorify Me, for He will take of what is Mine and declare it to you. 

We can interpret this many ways. For me, the key to understanding the perspective of those not believing in the historical Jesus is that they have experienced repentance (which means to turn around and change the way that you think). It is a divine inversion when we realize that everything in scripture is actually inside of you - the ego needs to see things as external in order to grasp the mysteries of scripture - then one day, in the twinkling of an eye (enlightenment) the shift occurs and we realize that the history is actually a mystery and that this Christ, is you.

Paul labored intensely with this little seed (human consciousness) as he was in travail for us even now to see that Christ be formed in us.

There is a book by Deepak Chopra called The Third Jesus where he classifies three beings called Jesus. If you have not read it it is a worthwhile read. He speaks of the historical Jesus, the Jesus of Christianity and the cosmic Christ.

It is necessary for the fledgling seed of man's consciousness to see a pattern and so the pattern is here with us in book form so that the intellect can read and cypher what it chooses to believe, historical or mystical. If I believe in Jesus as a human it is of no consequence as as long as I understand that Christ is come in the flesh (yours and mine). It is of no consequence is I believe he did not come in historical form as long as I believe he has come in the flesh (yours and mine). It is of no consequence if I see a cosmic Christ (Christ all in all) as long as I believe he is appearing in you and me.

Belief is all that is required - not in a man per se but what is in you, what your true identity is as spirit that is having quite a human experience. This is the Christ, the Emanuel (God with man). Presently this Christ is slumbering in the manger of humanity wrapped in the swaddling of our beautiful biology. He, this Christ is growing within and at some point we must put away those necessary things/beliefs from our youth so that the Christ might appear, in us.

This is why Jesus warned us not to believe it when someone says, Look there is the Christ! Because this appearing will not be external from us but rather will be within the framework of man.


About my book project titled, Escaping Christianity - My Journey out of Fundamentalism and into Christ


A little bit about the book I am working on called, Escaping Chritianity - My Journey out of Fundamentalsim and into Christ"

If I can escape, anyone can. By “escape,” I mean to exit the trappings that define fundamentalist Christianity. This book will take the reader on my Spiritual journey out of religion and into Christ Consciousness, forsaking the history for the mystery.

Escaping Christianity is a non-fiction account of my journey out of Christian fundamentalism thought and into a much broader mystical understanding of scripture. I left dogmatic religion rather suddenly in late 1999. It began when I started to view scripture as metaphor; the whole Bible opened up, giving me a mystical view of the historical events found within the print. I was a speaker, teacher, writer and exorcist within the Charismatic movement and my fundamentalism was no longer making sense to me. I began to question many of the tenants of the faith that I had been raised with. Heaven, Hell, the Devil, Christ, even the word “saved” began to take on new meaning. I began seeing Bible events as internal and mystical, thereby providing me with a roadmap of sorts to our personal and collective evolution in consciousness. Along with this different view came rejection from my church brothers and sisters. However, something was blooming within my consciousness and there was no turning back. I was seeking and I was finding. This burgeoning awareness could not be constrained in a limited fundamentalist environment. The root was breaking the pot.

I don’t call myself a Christian per se, but I am a follower of Jesus. I also recognize that the term Christianity is a brand defined by a world power centuries ago, that now at best only represents a shadow of His teachings. Generally speaking, today’s Christianity might be compared to Judaism in the days that Jesus walked the earth. He was continually hard on the religious people for their rigid adherence to a system that was past its time of relevance, and for their inability to let go of it. Ultimately, they were threatened by His use of parables and breaking their laws. Might the religious system of that day be a mirror of the fundamentalist system today, intolerant, judgmental, full of fear and threatened when followers do not adhere to their traditions? Jesus was not a Christian. He was not even a good Jew. Jesus modeled a “way” for us out of religion. These are hard statements for most Christians to swallow indeed. I know it was for me. In fundamentalism, I was motivated by fear. I became more of a Pharisee, loving rules and rituals rather than loving mankind. My ego-centric self needed to be right rather than righteous.

As I began my departure from religion, I was disenfranchised not only from church systems, but from close friendships as well. It is my hope that the information within this book helps awaken those still trapped within fundamentalism, and displays the love that this savior of theirs so eloquently expressed. I know that this book will become a handbook of sorts to help those brave pioneers as they begin their migration “out.” This migration out of dogma and literalism is parallel to leaving left-brain interpretation of historical cannon into right-brain metaphorical conclusion. The scripture revealed metaphorically unveils this precious lover of God, the human mind, and its journey from seeing God externally to embracing the Divine within.

Escaping Christianity will dive deeply into the symbolic language of metaphor that will stimulate the intuitive part of the reader’s consciousness. Through embracing the mystical message found in scripture, we will awaken to our identity as Divinity and the arduous journey it has taken. We will see through the mystery of the parables that Divinity, having no material form, planned a willful decent into our material plane to find for itself a helpmate (the human body) from which to explore, create and inhabit physical worlds. I feel the interpretation of these texts has been reserved, specifically designed for today’s awakening masses, and that there is now more than ever before, a greater ability within our consciousness to contain such mysteries.

In reading Escaping Christianity, the reader will see that Christ is not a last name for Jesus, but rather a mode of being that Jesus patterned for us to follow. As such, it is more a verb than a noun. We will understand that all of human consciousness is metaphorically a corporate Virgin Mary that was impregnated by Divinity; Virgin, because never before in all of creation had there been an environment where Spirit was able to penetrate matter. Now, this divine essence has wrapped itself in the swaddling clothing of our beautiful biology, resting in the manger of our humanity. These and other metaphorical messages found in scripture embrace all of humanity. No one is exempt from the divine plan of Christ (a creation that is both God and man) being formed in and through us. There is a mystical voice speaking loudly and clearly in Escaping Christianity to those who would have ears to hear.

Fundamentalism embraces a lot of dogma which holds the human mind captive in fear. Dogma defined is “unquestioned belief.” As the centuries have passed, some of what fundamentalist Christians believe does not have a firm foundation within scripture. There seems to be a tendency to embrace cultural myths reinforced with fear and call it “sound doctrine.” Divinity slumbers while mankind is held captive in fear-based religious systems as the frequency of fear is incompatible with love. The time has come to see the difference between the Son of Man held captive in fear and the Son of God whose essence is love.


The Son of Man is humanity expressed through slumbering Divinity ~ The Son of God is Divinity expressed through awakened humanity.

Son of Man - Ego is dominant; the mind is at unease and the body is mortal and limited. Intuitive faculties are largely suppressed. Man sees scriptural text as literal, historical, and external.

Son of God - Spirit is dominant; the mind is at ease and the body is immortal and unlimited. Intellect becomes passive and subservient to Divinity. Man sees scriptural text as metaphor, mystical and as a guide to internal unfolding and awakening.

The overarching message of Jesus Christ is to free the mind from egoist domination and to bring the life of the ego/self to death. However, as in our pattern of the cross, the ego/self does not remain in the tomb - as Divinity awakens within man, from its immersion into mortality, it is likened to the butterfly that emerges from within its crypt to reveal a new creation. This liberation of the masses from egoist domination is what it really means to be “saved.” 

My immersion into charismatic Christian fundamentalism includes vast experience as an exorcist within the church system. This experience has ultimately served me well in understanding the role of dualism or the knowledge of good and evil and the role it plays in our developing consciousness. I have come to see that the knowledge of good and evil yields to humanity a full spectrum of light and dark threads that provide the necessary contrast to form this beautiful tapestry called life. All things are made beautiful in their own time. It is from this place of non-judgment that forgiveness takes place, and all of our karmic cycles come to an end.


One such dark thread in the life of my family was the traumatic motorcycle accident my son Christian had, where he impacted head on with an F-250 Ford pickup truck at a combined speed in excess of one hundred and forty miles per hour. Christian was not wearing a helmet and lost his left arm and left leg. In the emergency waiting room I had an experience where I separated from my ego dominated mind to experience some of the most profound words of my life. As I floated somewhere up to the right of my body and hovering there I heard these words: “Barbara, Chris chose this, and so did you.” This understanding catapulted me from victim to participant, a fascinating concept we will explore in Escaping Christianity.

Moving consciously from victim to participant is a necessary component that will move us into a state of appreciating our life’s events. This viewpoint bridges the gap in consciousness, bringing us past ego domination as we see that things don’t happen to us; rather they happen for us.  Appreciation will help us transition to a position that is poised for resurrection and ascension. There is now a conscious effort to stop weaving those dark threads of egoist domination into the tapestry through the cessation of judgment. The light will overtake the dark and this dimensional level will eventually dismantle itself as one age gives way to the next. What a splendid time to be alive on planet earth. We are not victims we are participants, creating the greatest story ever told.

We are the saviors that the world has been waiting for. 



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